Cutiepatootie i found you last week
Where have you been hiding? 

You were there in that hall for the past year
Breaking to hip-hop music that i really didn’t like.

I can’t believe i didn’t see you and your cool moves before
But now i can’t stop thinking about them. 

Did you just get that God-given charm
that makes me swoon when you look my way? 

Because i swear that if you were before the way you are now
There is no way in hell that i would have missed it.

You are so friggin beautiful and you make butterflies form in my stomach. 

I’ve had this crush for only a couple days now but it feels like i’ve known you for a while. 

Everyone has flaws but i think you’re special

Because it’s you that has driven me outta my mind
to even think about writing an embarrassing poem 
without rhyme or rhythm
without eloquence or class
without sense
like this one.  

You’re not even worth the time it takes to write this.

supraorbital:

Sarah Kay’s poem “If I Should Have a Daughter”

Full TED performance here (18 minutes)

Great movie that left me thinking about my life, money and time. All throughout the movie, the catchphrase TIME IS MONEY appears, slowing making its impression on the viewers that this is more than just a common saying. In fact, it is a fact. Time is not given to us to be wasted in drunkenness, addictions or actions that are regrettable. From the movie, I felt that I have made the greatest revelation that will change my entire life if I maintain in the path I have determined for myself: to live to give. People on the other side of the world are facing death while I am writing this. I know that I have the resources and the ability to make a change. Just as Will and Sylvia live and rob time banks to destroy the economic disparity and thus give all the people equal time to live, I want to have an open heart. I have determined to put all my time into good use. With all this time/wealth that I have, I will first pursue my career goal. Then I will use that career and the money I get to give the people of poor regions a chance at life. And through it all, I will remember that I don’t live for a comfortable life, but live to give and eventually bring comfort to my mind for having used my time well.

I am seventeen going on eighteen… Actually, now that it’s past twelve, I am officially the age where I can vote, sign my own papers and drink, erm never mind that’s next year. Am I grown up now? I thought the transition to age sixteen was a big leap into adulthood, but even now I feel no different than how I felt two years ago. It’s just been a long long experience for me. Some say that the teenage years are the wildest and most exciting time of your life, but the most fun I had as a teen was probably staying up until two every night watching YouTube videos or going on Facebook (and later feeling the guilt of having wasted my life). Is this what teenage life is all about? Staying up late hours doing things that you realize is not worth your time? Falling asleep in class and swearing you would sleep before twelve, but never following it? Well, this is the story of my life these days. When I’m engrossed in what I’m doing, I see it as the greatest and most important thing in the world. Like while going through meme pictures on Facebook, I convince myself that the pics help me get a laugh out of it, gain a word of wisdom, or gives me creative ideas for writing. But at the end of the day, I feel a burdening sense of guilt for not doing what I have planned for the day, like glorifying and getting to know God through devos, worship, and prayer. I know what’s important for my life— a relationship w/ my creator— and I need to stick to it. I’m eighteen now and reaaaaaaally should be able to keep to my word. Thank you Jesus for your love over these seventeen years! Continue to use for your and develop me into a passionate, faithful and loving woman of God :)

1 get into u of t for humanities
2 volunteer in a school
3 don’t yell at my bro
4 get to 165cm
5 learn to play all of gabe bondoc’s songs
6 tell one person my testimony
7 read the entire bible
8 have a fun prom
9 get a boyfriend
10 get my drivers license
11 go clubbing
12 read at least a book a month
13 learn to dance & loosen up
14 travel to somewhere exotic
15 go canoeing and see the mountains
16 go on Facebook only twice a week
17 get a new poster for my room
18 grow closer with my school felly
19 grow closer with my church felly
20 be more open to my mom
21 play in the acoustic cafe
22 get a ninety average in school
23 write a song on my guitar
24 read about korea’s history
25 learn a Kpop dance
26 write at least one important bible verse a month and memorize it
27 thank God every morning
28 attend another Justin Nozuka concert
29 inform myself about the world through tv or newspaper
30 approach everyone with a smile

Times have really changed. Even last year, I was writing my new years resolution on paper. Now I’ll just post it and take a screen pic to keep it with me. So, before thinking of things that I should do from now on, I’m going to remember what I have done so far. In 2011, I read lots of books, wrote dozens of essays, got better at guitar, talked to more people, liked four guys, had the courage to ask two out, was blown off by both, applied for university, worked at the pool few times a week, made my own money, prayed to God every night, and became closer with my family, especially my mother. It was a good year with its ups and downs, its rhythm through spring summer fall winter. In 2012, I hope for just the same rhythm except with more speed and variety. This year seemed to drag a bit—I want next year to contain so much action that I have to really persist to keep up with everything. Also, I want to try many many new things and really experience all that life has to offer. As a teenager still, I want to go clubbing, get a boyfriend, and live it up. But as a slowly maturing young adult, I want to learn what I need to learn, get a job and become successful in life. All the while, as a growing Christian, I want to experience God and truly walk with Him everyday of my life. One thing that I really want to learn in the new year is time management. I know what’s wrong and what’s right, what I should do and what I shouldn’t, but I just can’t get myself to do it. Distractions take me away from what’s important, and knowing clearly I shouldn’t be taken by it, I follow what’s wrong willingly. If only I can divide my time well between my family, God, social activity and academic endeavor, I know that I’d have gotten much further in life than I have now. So, time management is my only resolution since learning it will help to put other things in proper place. 2012? Bring it on!

Wy did I waste my time thinking about something that could never be? You were playing that time and I took you for real. Now you’ve rubbed it in my face that you don’t want me. You could have just told me when I asked you, but no, you had to raise my hopes and shatter them. You had to flirt with her today, in front of my face, and make me feel dumb. I need to forget you, cause you’ve already forgotten me.

Your YES meant a lot last Wednesday but now it’s the source of my anxiety. Am I to doubt everything you ever said or did to me? Updating my account to see if something’s up between us just leaves me hopeless and wanting you even more. Is this your way of playing hard-to-get or are you just not caring at all? I feel dumb and impatient- was this your plan? Sometimes I sit back and consider the reasons wy nothing has happened yet: you’re busy, you’ve no chance to go online, or you’re not too sure how my name is spelt. But then pops in my head a reason that seems to have more veracity- you’re blowing me off. If all the doubting that I’ve done mounts to be useless and the alternative reasons be proven true, what about those days of painful wondering? Will those just disappear? Will anything good ever come of something with such an unsure beginning?

Hey love! We met today for the first time and we connected right away. Actually from the moment I saw you on stage around this time last year, something inside me sparked. Could you be the one I was dreaming of? It had to be you because my heart only jumped at your name and came alive at your voice. Now that my eyes could take you in, it was like an intimacy on a whole new level. Love, you were so gentle kind and humble, just like love itself. I hadn’t expected this from you, so you impressed me very much. When I thanked you for coming despite your ill health, you said no problem and thanked me too. When I said that you were wonderful, you were surprised and this surprised me. I asked for a hug and you shied away, yet I still hugged you. I really want to know you and become your love. I’m making too much of this, because on your side, all you remember is a regular fan girl.